post AHM

Yo peeps.Surprise that im updatin now??Well, Im on off today because yesterday was Army Half Marathon.Ran 10km this year because have to "look" after my men.This is the 1st time in 5 years I ran 10km.Amazin huh.

Ehmm...so didnt do anythin much today.Laze around at home and went out for a drive.Pretty lazy thou but well just needed some fresh air.People asked what do I expect in life??My expectation is simple.Carefree, simple and happy.I dont have to own 5Cs but just enough to survive and feed everyone at home.People asked what am I gonna do after I leave the forces??Relaxed and do what i wanna do.Scuba divin, rock climbin and kayakin.I have so many things to do.I wanna go back to school, wanna have class 2A, 4 and 5 licences,wanna go Maldives,wanna go Ramunia for kayakin 4 star, wanna obtain a rock climbin instructor licences.See, I have so much to do which i dont have enough time to get it done.Was it really a wrong choice??I have been askin myself all the time.I see all my friends one by one ord.My trainee ord gettin back their pink i/c and they are barely 21 years old.What am i doin in the Armed forces since 18??with nothing achieve.

Some people like itz great workin for the government.But you have not gone through what we have gone through.The pain and sufferin that we been through.Havin to stay away from your family members, friends and the social life.Have anyone try not been able to sleep for days due to mission, not even gettin to shower for days.Muddy, smelly and sleepin in the rain.Yes, most guys gone through all this shit.But what about the ladies??Have they try to understand us??Compromisin with us??I have seen many broken relationship in the army due to not havin spent enough time with their girlfirends.Hey, c'mon..you are enjoyin life outside but we are not.Why cant any ladies try to understand what we are goin through??

I do not wanna commit too much to anything.Sometimes, we just need to break promises but that is part and parcel of life.Rules are meant to be broken too.Who dont break rules??who dont break the law??how can promises be kept??Sometimes, at a certain point we have to break it then so be it.We dont need a rocket scientists to tell us to keep our promises, not to break the law/rule.But thatz part of the game.People cheat to achieve what is dear to them.As far as im concern, as long you have tried your best thatz enough.We dont need an award to prove that we follow the rule/law and keep our promises.Therez a loop hole to everything.You cant keep a promise prefectly.

Guyz, it seen that there is no linkage in this blog.But well, someone need to voice our their opinion.Why are guyz always sufferin??Just look at any forum, people is alwayz seekin help in relationship.Maybe i think differently from everyone.I dont believe in guys givin in to ladies.There must be a fair share.If she is wrong she is wrong.Why get yourself to answer for her??

Peace to the world

long time

Yo peeps, I have decided to delete the last post if anyone had actually read it.Anyway, while I was stonnin just now I realize something.Something which I have been missin for the past 4 years or so.

22 years of my life just gone like these, with nothing much that I have achieve.Be it in life, career or even education.I have yet to achieve alittle something for myself and family.I have not achieve an award to make my family proud or even a scholarship.It has been hard for the family.I know everyone is not doin good at home, problems everywhere but everyone is keepin quiet.I dont seem to know everyone around me.People ask 'Why do you sign on??'I cant answered them.I dont even know the reason.Was I happy for the past 4 years in the army.Yes and No.At first things was smooth and slowly certain things just die off.Have I regretted??Yes, i have.I keep tellin myself not to give up 10 years is goin to fly fast but no itz not goin to be fast.Sometimes i wonder what will i be doin now if i dont sign on??studyin??workin??enjoyin myself as a civilian??Question marks are everywhere but who can i blame??Do I really like this job alot??The answer is NO.Im lyin to myself, im sufferin.Im really sufferin.Itz so bad that i feel like runnin away from it.Who do i do all this for??myself??

I have made many decision, both right or wrong.Sometimes the decision I made let one suffer but what can i do??Im sufferin too.Can anyone understand how much i have suffer for the past 4 years just because of some setback that came into my life??Have I not made any sacrifices??Some people or even my parents asked 'why i am always so quiet??'There are just too many things in me that cant be answered.Why do i think differently from others.Itz because of what had happened in my life.Why should i think similar like anyone else??if i think itz wrong itz wrong.i cant force myself to think itz right.Im very tired about my life.Itz gettin meaningless already.I realise for the past 4 years my routine is rather fix.Stay in from Monday to friday.Saturday book out sunday book in.Thatz my life..borin, meaningless.....Now i dont even have time for my own personal stuff.yes, i dont like sittin in the offices, i like challengin stuff but my life is too much of a routine.I have lost touch on many things.

Guyz, have you felt that life is meaningless??I just hate the routine which is makin me crazy.

Cheers

After Battalion Anniversary

Yo peeps...How you guys doin??Okay, heres a update on the whole 'Amazin Race' yesterday.

So yesterday was Battalion Anniversary.It was pretty fun thou.Run here and there, rush like mad.Im the driver for the team.6 of us, suppose to have a car and a bike but well the dowpour came so we have to do without the bike and squeeze 6 person into my car, plus i just service my car yesterday.Ehmm...44 checkpoints, my team found 40.We didnt have enough time to look for the other 4 so we gave up.When around City hall, bugis, Dhoby Gaunt and chinatown.Parked my car illegally, run across the road got the photo of the checkpoint, rush across the road again and zoom we went again.Thats what we did for all the checkpoints.We didnt rely on our map in the first place but usin local knowledge.But guess what we didnt quite know he places.Ehmm...the result we came in 2nd.Heehee...we could have done better if we have plan the route in the first place.Whole event ended around 1630hrs.

Next, yesterday i saw someone again.Someone whom im not suppose to see or I didnt expect to see again in such a short period of time.Remember on my Mum's birthday i mention I saw someone??Yes, i saw that particular person again.This time that person is sittin infront of me.Well, of course i didnt say "hi" or whatsoever.I just look away and continue talkin to my friends.Was this fate??No, of course not.Anyway, who cares.Spend quite alot of money yesterday due to the travellin here and there.

Tonight, goin to send grandma to the airport.China trip.What so good about China??I will never wanna go there.Ehmm...what else should I say??Im damn tired.woke up early to wash my car.Itz so dirty.mud everywhere due to the shoes of my friends after the whole event yesterday.Took quite some time to get ot done.

Guyz, not goin to say much but enjoy your weekend.

Cheers

National Day

Yo peeps..How are you guyz doin??Havin fun from the holidays??Haha..Im on off today man.Guess most of you are workin or studyin right except for primary school and secondary school peeps.

So, yesterday was doin duty.It was pretty peaceful thou.No one is in camp except the duty personnel.Guess what I slept through lunch and dinner.I only had my meals at 2230hrs after staff parade.Haha..Cool dude.The airplane from tengah rocks my sleep.They took off to the stadium for the parade.Okay, watch the National Day Event from the media.Overall, was average.I wonder how people see the performance when all the lights are off.I got impatient and proceedto read my comics follow by PSP.Yeah..

Hand over my duty at 0800hrs sharp.Rush home because need to send my car for servicin.Guess what??Today is the first time in 8 months i took a MRT and bus home.The service will take a whole day because alot of people so i went home.Wow...not used to it man.Crowded everywhere,stuffy,noisy and smelly people sittin next to me.I just get too used to drivin.Trust me I almost got lost man.My pocket used to have cashcard and today is Ez-link card.WTH..

Tomorrow is battalion Anniversary.Gonna have sort of like a 'Amazin Race' around CBD area.Cant drive so have to take public transport again.Shit...Itz killin me.An hour more and I have to make my way down to the workshop to collect my car.Sigh..I need my car dearly.Cant live without it.Should have took dad's car but well itz too big for me.Furthermore, dont wanna leave any scar on his car.Not used to drivin big car although i once drove big car before my Mazda 2.

Guyz, What do you think of the parade??I will rate it a 8/10.I believe somewhere can be done better.Anyway, any plans for the weekend??No plans for me yet but Saturday gonna drive grandma to the airport.She is goin to 'China' with her church group.Hope she will enjoy herself there and relax.Take care..Well, folks her age should be enjoyin and not worryin.Well, i wanna my parents to stop workin now and enjoy life but well i have yet to settle down my cash flow.

Cheers

National Day Eve

Yo peeps.So today is National Day eve but have been goin on.As usual, school havin celebration, military camps havin parade etc.Today is a halfday work for us.Nothin much thou but quite tirin.So this is how it went...

Woke up pretty early today because we have to go to Mandai Hill camp for observation parade.As usual itz a long draggy one.The whole divison is there, didnt get to see some of my friends because they were out early doin the National Day Parade stuff for tomorrow.The final touch up.Some of them said itz tirin but well my unit is involved in the World Bank meetin thou and its tirin too.We have been preparin since Feb.Amazin huh..So the whole parade lasted for about an hour followed by a 8km run together with Division.I was very tired and didnt have the mood to run, slept late last night because we were chattin til about 0200hrs and wake up time was 0530hrs.The whole event lasted till 1030hrs and home sweet home.Reached home shower and slept and went for movies.."click"

Tomorrow, will be in camp doin duty alone.Itz been a long time since i did weekend duties but well only 1 duty this month..haha..Gonna spent most of the time sleepin and washin my car no one is around in camp except for the duty personnel.

I notice one thing when I was drivin into the carpark today.No families around my area put up the State flag.Ehmm..what is happening.1 block only about 4 household hang the state flag.Something weird thou, last time 1 month before National Day everyone will start hangin but not this year.Geezz..

Oh ya, so many roads are closed tomorrow.Just imagine how people are goin to get home after the parade.Congestion.Itz not traffic congestion but human congestion.Haha..I think i only perfer the marchin parade more than the show being put up.Every year i just watch the parade thats all but not the show put up.No idea why but well the contingent is really something.It might seem easy than the show put itz tirin.Just imagine how long you have to stand there not movin??You cant even drop durin the parade.Salute to all.

Guyz, how are you gonna celebrated National Day??Ehmm..time to think about what you can contribute.

Cheers

freak out

Yo peeps...howz the weekend.Mine was just okay.Did nothin much but drivin my mum around to get her stuff.Grandma is goin China next saturday.

Okay, nothin much happened today.But was rather moody, my car side mirror is damage.The mechanism inside isnt workin and its damn noisy now.Seems like Im gonna spend money again gettin it done.

Next, have you ever wonder how do we express our love to the nation??Does it mean that every year we squeeze our balls and manage to get a ticket to the parade means we love our nation??or is it when we take the pledge everyday and sing the anthem??There are many ways to show our love for the nation.To me havin to attend the parade every year doesnt prove that I love the nation.Yes, takin the pledge and singin the anthem do shows that we love the nation but anyone sing with pride??Some school can even place the nation flag lower than their school flag.Where is the respect??When the flag is being rise anyone bother to slaute or just even stand and face the flag??When there is a war who will put their life at the frontline??The regulars in the armed forces and police force??

I love my country as it is peaceful and clean.Its a great place to be in.But really Singaporeans are selfish, greedy and they think of themselves.I just cant stand it.Have anyone ever thought of what they can contributed to the nation??Let what my commandin officer always asked 'what can you contributed to the battalion and nation'??This question came rushin into my mind.How can we contribute??

Guys, these post might seem offendin and crappy but thatz what i feel.I feel that everyone should sit down and think what we could contribute to the nation.Lets face it everyone is complaintin about this and that.Prices goin up, GST and stuff.But where is the contribution??Anyway,someone is enjoyin life.

Cheers

80th post

Yo peeps...so this is my 80th post.God damn it, so many post I have written and here i am again crackin my brain what to update.Shit

Okay, today my temper was kinda hot.Seriously hot, my cousin will know that.I doubt he hardly see me so angry and crazy.Met up with the car owner which I had a accident with last Friday.Paid her 700 bucks and wasted my time and petrol just to meet up for less than a minute, and im serious itz less than a minute.I just cant wait to get outta the place.The sight of that bitch make me sick.She should be the one payin not me.Damn.

This incident have ruin my saturday.Money just fled away just like that and I have to answer to my mum if she ever finds out about it.Anyway, grandma had sold her house.Meanin im gettin a new neighbour in 3 months time.Shit.I just hate it, the sellin of the house has cause lotz of unhappiness in the family.Itz just so sick.Anyway, she is goin to move to commanwealth.Pretty far thou and guess what she is stayin alone.So now everyone wants me to 'brainwash' her.She is just so stuborn.Well, i should see how it goes.

Ehmm...so next week i will just be offically workin for 1 day which is on the monday.Tuesday was some event at Mandai Hill camp follow by a halfday and wednesday National Day doin duty, thursday off which im goin to spend half a day servicin my car Friday Battalion anniversary.Quite enrichin huh.

I just found out a couple of days ago that actually a NDP ticket could be sold at 150 bucks each.People are actually offerin 150 bucks for a ticket.Damn.Thatz quite alot man.I have never like NDP.I mean the parade and event itself.Imagine havin to squeeze with thousands of stranger, gettin push around and the warm atsomphere.Itz pretty sucky man.And havin to rush for buses after the event.God.People sweatin, smelly standin so close to you.The amount of germs you are goin to get at the end of the day.What is so special about the parade??Okay, what I really respect is the parade itself not the show that they put up.I think itz just too simple and doesnt mean anythin.Furthermore, why must there be fire works??wastin tax payer money??shit, thatz my money thou.Anyway, I will never want to watch the parade at the stadium.The comfort of my home is good enough.Save the trouble.Im not goin to squeeze with all those strangers.I HATE IT

Yes, i have decided to leave the force thou my buddy didnt want me to leave.Actually im half hearted now.Should I finish the whole mono before leavin or what??well, who cares.ITZ MY BLOODY LIFE.

Guyz, this post is kinda long i feel and itz full of anger.My mood isnt good today or for the past 1 week.But well, life still goes on.Ehmm...should i get another tattoo??haha..

cheers

tired

Yo peeps....the week is comin to an end soon again.At least I have finished my work week from today.Yeah, tomorrow i will be on off.I guess it should be a well deserved off.How did the week go??

So, everyday is nothing but physical trainin.My whole body is achin all over especially my legs.It feels like jelly right now.Day in Day out the trainin programme is nothing but runnin and physical trainin.Most of the men cant take it anymore includin the commanders.Well, I guess itz time to have a good rest for next week trainin.Another good news, next week I will be only workin on Monday.Lotz of event next week followed by the National Day.Yeah, this year I will be spendin National Day in camp doin duty.Sounds great day, no one to disturb.Heehee..I love weekends duty.haha

Next, my case is still on pendin I suppose.The control personnel centre wants to discharge me from regular service but CO doesnt want to.But the problem is i wont be gettin my promotion in November.What the hell??So i have been thinkin this few days, should I just end my contract and be a civilian all over again.Less stress and i dont have to abid by the rule.But what about my car??I cant live without it man.So currently, discussion is goin on so worked out a better route.But like I always say "who cares"..haha...I dont mind even they discharge me because i have already thought of leavin next year.So its a bonus if i could leave earlier.Heehee...

Im dyin to dive again.Just miss the trip to dayang, itz just so damn beautiful, quiet and relaxin there.ehmm...I wanna keep divin, climbin and paddlin.I realize i have miss paddlin so much with my team.Need to do more catchin up dude.=)

Guyz, howz work man??Guess you guyz are still strugglin through tomorrow.Well, i have ended my week.Haha.Dont do extra stuff, you wont get paid for that.Im slackin but i dont give a shit.No one cares.

Cheers