end of the month

Yo peeps, itz the end of the month again.How time flies.Itz Vesak Day today, thou i dont celebrate Vesak Day and i dont even know what Vesak Day is all about but hey we have another day off.Haha

Nothin much happened today.Woke up early to go to chruch to pay our respect to our grandfather.It was been quite some time since we went down.How time really flies, he have left us for 7 years already and up till today i still remember that every day what had happened.Well, i guess i should come up with a tribute for him.Afterall, he has been in my life most of the time when he is still around.After chruch we went to East Coast Park, sis wanted to cycle so just bring her there.I didnt cycle at all wasnt feelin well and somethin is troublin me.Basically i drove the whole day and im just damn tired.

3 more days and itz the end of my long break.Gonna go back to work again and guess what outfield on Monday till Thursday.How sad it is.My life is like just a routine, is life all about routine??I donno..I feel so tired but i couldnt get to sleep sometime.My body have a certain timin.No matter how tired I am, i will always wake up around that time.I think my body and brain is used to the army style.The time we wake up and the time we sleep.This is really no good, i dont like that.In this way, i wont ever had enough rest, durin my off day i also wake up so early.

I need to plan out my weekends real fast.August all my saturday mornin are burn due to class 4 practical lesson at Jurong.I still need to go for my kayakin 3 Star refresher.The lifeguard course instructor has yet to get back to me.My cousin is waitin for me to go wakeboardin.Aiyo, so many things but i dont have enough money.How??I wanna ORD so that i dont only have weekends but weekdays too.Now durin work as long as I can run away i will run away, as long as itz not my job i wont do.Haha..Thatz how practical things are gonna be.

Ehmm..nothin much thou..have a great weekend and a great new month ahead..

Peace

last

last thing im gonna say before i start anew from this moment"

HELL TO THE WORLD!!!

Guess, i will prepared myself for the next few days for the untimate change on 1 June 2007.

nice way to start afresh

on leave

Yo peeps, here i am again bloggin with nothing much particular in mind.2nd day of my leave, didnt do anythin much.Im enjoyin every single moment at home even thou iz bored.I have gotta get used to it after I leave the army this is gonna be my life.

I have some thoughts today.Somethings just went thur my mind, somethin thatz always in my mind.GOALS??What is it that i want??what is my goal??what i wanna achieve out of my life??what acutally i wanna be??whatz my dreams??I still remember when i was a kid, i love goin to the airport, i wanna be a poilet..but well, what have i ended up to be??A solider, to be exact a combat soldier. someone whom was trained to fight war,run,climb, walk and carryin heavy load.Yes, itz challengin but it wasnt my dream.Everyone wants a better life, who doesnt want??But we need to work double hard to achieve it.Whose not envy about others livin comfortably??who doesnt envy people not havin to worry about work even they just sit at home??At the end of the day it really comes down to whether we have work hard enough.We cant blame anyone for the life that we are leadin now.

I regretted lots of stuff actually.I regretted not puttin in the extra effort in school.i should say from elementary school.I remember havin to be too busy with my ECA that i neglected my studies.I was involved in many programmes and often missin class.I had a tutor but i didnt treasure, i wasnt serious about school work and thus my result just keep fallin.Comin to High school, same thing just happened.I wasnt bother at all and thinks that everythin will just come my way.but i was wrong, I didnt manage my time well.Goin home late everyday and stuff.After signin on, seein so many people around me ORD-ED, i felt jealous.i dont feel rite, people tellin me they are goin back to school, goin to work and stuff and im wonderin what the hell am I doin here??Yes, itz a golden rice bowl, i earn much more than the degree holders out there but im sure their life is far more better than me.Not havin to go thur the regimentation day in day out.Believe it anot, i just hate steppin into any school compound now.It will just remind me of why didnt i study hard enough to be there.Yes, people will say itz okay.But well, i dont have to be bother about what they say, i just hate it.

I wanna start from the beingin.All over again, i wanna go back to school, finished what i have to finish.Continue doin what i wanna do, dive, climb, kayak.Learnt new things everytime.the question will come back again.Am I gonna finished servin my contract??I really donno.The angel of me say i should leave and not waste more time.But the devil in me say i should stay, well...at least no matter what on the 10th of each month i will stil get my pay.I have thought about it, someone have to sponsor me for the next 2 years if i really wanna leave.My car, insurance, bills, school fees and daily expenses.Even thou i saved up and dont spend a single cent money will still be a prob.I really donno what i should do or even plan my life.

I wanna change for a better, be a mature man and continue my life.I have miss out 5 years worth of treasure, i realize 5 years i can do alot of things.Just by lookin at my friends, im just way behind them.The only differences is that i own a car and have a stable job.But knowledge and experinces wise i lost out to them.Nobody wants to lost to anyone out there, but sometimes situation just dont allow us at all.So im gonna change it.I wanna start savin and spendin lesser money or better not spendin any.

Guyz, everyone has flaws.Yes, i dont care what people say or think about it.I just dont bother.But well, itz time to improve.Im sure i can work things out.Friends out there, im gonna win you guyz one day.Even thou at times i bring myself down so be it.Itz just the fact.

Peace to the World

siao

I HATE MYSELF, I HATE MY LIFE!!!

yeah

Yo peeps, yeah..the work week has finally come to an end.It means itz a start of my long break.Yes, a well-deserved break.It has been a long time since i had this kinda break.I just cant remember when was the last time i had such a long break.

Well, was supposed to go Port Dickson durin this break but my brother last minute had to go back to school for his NCC stuff.So the whole trip just gotta cancel.Damn..Well, it doesnt matter as long as im outta camp im fine.I can slack at home, swim in the mornin, go rock climbin and stuff.Itz the school holidays afterall.Haha..This mornin i finally went to Jurong Stadium to register for Class 4 lesson.It cost me about 655 bucks for the whole package includin the test.Guess what??My test is on the 28th August.Itz like 2 months from now.Well, not to worry thou, therez only 7 practical lesson and itz mostly on Saturday.1 hour per lesson, I just need some time to get used to drivin manual vehicle.It has been like 1 year since i drove a manual vehicle.The last time was my class 3 test in December 2005.After since itz auto all the way and my left leg is not of a used because no clutch what.Haha...So hopefully durin the first lesson i get back the feel and trick on changin gears and releasin the clutch.Yeah yeah!!

I have bought the Linkin Park new album.Well, itz not as good as all the previous album.So far i only like "what I've done", ehmm...maybe need to listen a few more times to get used to it and stuff..So next month we have 2 outfield exercise.One is "Exercise Eagle 2" and the other one is "Sermagat Bersatu".Hopefully both exercise pass quickly.Im startin to hate outfields especially in Singapore.Because everywhere is mosquitos and the weather is so damn hot.

Ehmm..i guess thats all for now.Nothin much to update either.

Guyz, have a great weekend.Make sure you guyz enjoy yourselves because we have to start work again on Monday...hahahahaha

cheers

Ops Bacinet Ended

Yo peeps, it has really been awhile.Im MIA..haha...Ops duty had finally come to an end last Tuesday.Time really flies very fast. 2 weeks just ended with a blink.Well, Ops duty is really fine, i enjoyed every moment there.

So what have we done after we handed over to charlie Company.Everyday is like runs and more runs, so far up to date we ran everyday in the mornin and in the afternoon.We had 1 route march with estab load plus bullet-proof vest for 4km.We almost dead as itz really very hot because all the heat is trap in our body, plus the bullet proof vest is heavy and also my missile.So this is more or less what we do everyday.After mornin run we will sleep till like 1600hrs before we starts another PT session.

Next week, standby duties are gonna start again.This time itz for a duration of 2 months till 7 August, just before National Day.Yeah!!Within this 2 months we have lots of outfield exercises, one major one will be the exchange programme with the Malaysian Army. "Exercise Sermagat Bersatu".So itz like gonna be pretty shag thou but well, im gonna be on leave the whole of next week.Gonna enjoyed myself and relax before everythin starts all over again.

Oh ya, not forgettin I have 7 more months to go before im able to leave the force.Im still thinkin if i should go for ATEC before leavin.Sigh..Ehmm, so this is the update so far.Nothing new, nothing fresh.Oh ya, Linkin Park new album is out, im gonna get it this weekend.Yeah!!I just like their music..Haha..Just their music but not the band.Im not crazy about all this band stuff..

Guyz, this should be all.The rest of the week is gonna b quite relax.Run sleep run sleep so nothing much.Have a great week thou.

Cheers

sigh

Yo peeps, how you guyz doin??yeah...1 week into Ops Bacinet already.Just imagine how times flies??Im startin to like doin duty i mean doin Ops Bacinet.Itz really cool thou.Anyway nothing much really happened this few days just that Dad fell down on Saturday mornin while cleanin the floor.He knock his head and was bleedin non stop.

I was on duty at that time and received a called from my cousin and I rushed back home to get my car and went down to Tan Tock Seng hospital.The cut was like 7cm long, the doctor wanna him to stay at the hospital for at least 8 hours for observation.Durin that period of time he just can keep still.Keep wantin to go back to work and discharged.I just feel like askin the doctor to put him to sleep so that he can really rest.Just imagine you injure the back of your head and at his age now itz no joke.So he was discharged at 2200hrs on the day itself.He is fine now and guess what back to work again the next day, no one just seem to be able to stop him.

Anyway, he shouldnt have much problem now.Spiderman 3 is screenin now and i wanna find time to watch.Haha...I have so much things i wanna do this week, i wanna go down to Jurong to sign up for Class 4 drivin lesson, i wanna watch spiderman, i wanna go catch prawns, i wanna go rock climbin.Haha...i have like 101 things to do but then i never ever stick to my plans.

Ehmm...ever wonder how things or people change so fast??After achievin something that they wanted and character starts to change??Although we always tell people that we had not change abit but we ourselves will never realize.We need someone to tell us why and how we had change.Only from someone eyes they will see how we had change.I understand that everythin that we achieve works wonders.From a simple gettin a 'A' for a test to even gettin a promotion so on and so for.But is it necessary for the change??was it for the better or was it for the worse??There are both good and bad points for changin but maybe the choice of words and the things you said then and now will make a differences.Not everyone can achieved to what you had achieved today, and not everyone wanna achieve the same things.Do we choose friends in terms of status??

I like to think about my life whenever im alone.Most of the time i do my reflections doin my duty.WHY??Because i cant sleep at night and the surroundin is pretty quiet for me to think.I realize again i have been missin alot of things.Not doin what im suppose to do and stickin to plans and of course not achievin something out of everythin.I always felt shitty when i think about my career, how i screwed it up not havin my promotion.And i started to think again "why i sign on??"what if i didnt sign on, where would i be and what would i be doin.People always like to say "what if" or even "If "...Well, if i know today i would be like this i would have not want to come into this world. Seriously, i always felt heartache when i think about it but still i cant stop thinkin.I like to think, think about every small little thing and make my own conclusion.I like to compare and i like to be different from the rest.Thats me!!

Well, itz pretty weird how each and every human brains work.Itz amazin how the brain cell tell us to do things.This world is amazin.

Guyz, have a great week at work or school.

cheers

Ops Bacinet

Yo peeps, it has been some time since I last blog.Been kinda busy this few days preparin for Ops Bacinet.Guess what??im guardin sembawang Wharves.We, Support Coy officially took over duty on 2 May 2007 @ 1400Hrs.

Sembawang wharves is not so bad.Bunk is air-conditional and of course itz near my house.For once i didnt drive to work because the workin hours is not fixed and itz not worth tearin the supplementary ticket.Yesterday had a long day there, I was the first to be on shift and im also the Force 2Ic.I need to ensure my troops had their meals, open the armskote for them to draw weapon and ammunition.First duty I slept around 0400hrs and wake up like 0630hrs.I have been runnin around like a dog, doin all the stuff and yet people say im not doin my job.WTH..Anyway, i also dont care much as long as my task is done itz enough.So tomorrow is gonna be my turn again.Another long day to go till Saturday 1200hrs.For 2 weeks it will be the same routine.Do for 24 hours, off for the next 24 hours.Well, itz not exactly 24hrs off thou but well better than nothing.

So, i need to find some stuff to do when im there.My PSP has been send in for servicin so im just left with my Ipod, dive mag and a story book.GOD, i will still get bored thou.Theres no wireless connection there if not my lappy will be there at least I would play some online games.Someone please make time past faster.

Im feelin confused lately.Confused about what I want and what i wanna do.Therez so many things i wanna do and so many things that NEED to be done.I simply just dont have the time to do my own stuff.Work is takin up too much of my time.I need a break, i need a long holiday.I dont care after Ops Bacinet i wanna go for a holiday.I wanna go Port Dickson again.Itz a cool place to relax, just relax lookin at the sea.

Okay guys, you must be wonderin why am i talkin halfway and jumpin here and there or maybe there isnt any link.Well, im just damn tired now but couldnt sleep so im like dont even know what im typin.So, pardon me ya

Have a great week.

cheers